Not sure what to title this so lets just call this untitled

Before I start this post I would like to say this is going to be a lot of me venting and cussing and not my normal self writing I would like to make that perfectly clear. Now with out further to do.

Well as those of you close to me know I have ADD and those of you who know me also know it has been my dream for basically the last two or so years to become an Air Traffic Controller.  So I knew I would have to get a medical for it from the FAA so I figured might as well get it now before I go down to Roswell (ROW) I would get it. Figured hey I am smart I like doing things ahead of time lets get this sucker done! So I start looking at what I would need to get the darn fucking thing well I find out since I have ADD I have to get a mental eval done okay fine what ever I will kick ass and be fine. So anyways I have very supportive parents (Don't worry My one or maybe two friends who actually read this darn thing I know I have your support as well and thank you for it! May you all be successful and not have to deal with something like this) I have to right now say thank you to them if they some how find this blog, but anyways they found a Mental Health Person (MHP) as I feel like calling them right now. Well anyways we went down did the tests and basically I am not going to ROW anymore at this point because there is no fucking point not one to go down and waste two years of my life . With that being said I well wont be qualifying for the dam med thing. No I am not mad at the MHP or anything like that, I just feel like I have had my heart and my dream ripped out of me. I mean yeah while I do see the MHPs view on I need to think realistically on my future career  I guess its sorta like that was that was my career yes there are plenty of other Aviation related jobs out there I would most likely do fine in, but for me there jobs not careers. I guess I just feel I would not say dumb or stupid but it still hurts knowing I cant be an Air Traffic Controller the one thing I wanted more then anything else. The MHP also feels I should maybe go back on meds which those who know me know I came off more then a year ago and I do not want to go back hell no I am not fucking going back to them! I have done just fine off them. If theres any thing good well I like about the MHPs report its that I am apparently very smart Verbally in fact above average, I guess all I can say on that is what I love talking.   

Goodish News!

I have some good well goodish News(Goodish- Sorta Good sorta ehh). I have figured out my back up plan if this Air Traffic Controller thing does not work out which as of this time (8:55 AM 2/21/14) I still do not know how my mental exam went Hopeful to find out by Next Friday. Anyways if it does not work out I have Decided I will go for airline dispatcher! There are a lot of neat benefits according to a blog (http://myfiftypercent.net/) I found you get to fly in the jump seat heck your required to for at least 5 hours per year even better after the 5 per year you get to fly in the jump seat on the flight deck when ever you want as long as the Cap says yes among other things.

I do not know what to do!

Well as some of you know I went on a tour of ZAB and ABQ Terminal/TRACON yesterday (2/16/14 is when this should post so 2/15/14). Of course I asked questions but I found out some bad news as of Dec 30th 2013 the CTI program A no longer gives you any priority at the FAA. As if that was bad enough for me Found out B that it is true they are taking applications right now and C while I can not confirm this you have to be 19 D they normally only take lots of applications 1-3 times every 10 or so years so its like crap I may miss it with no fault of my own and if that was not bad enough they want either a bachelors degree or three years of work experience or a mix ENMR will only give me an associates. This just messes up my entire plan! As some of you who know me very well I hate hate school so I had planed to do as little school as possible I mean its the best option for me. Knowing that My plan was go for ENMR's associates degree in applied science Air Traffic Control, while waiting for the FAA to call me I would then go for Eastern New Mexico's Aviation Science Bachelor of Applied Arts and Science or their Aviation Science Bachelor of Science if FAA called me between when I started and when I finished it then fine I would go to OKC then finish when I had the time and Money (both are mostly if not all online which could help). I wish I could use my auto classes as three years of job exsperince yes I could just go for the bachlers now but like I said I hate school but I knw it looks good to have a bachlers so that's why I was like my orginal plan works for me cuz enmrs stuff would quickly transfer to easterns stuff and I would only have to take maybe a year and a 1/2 of classes

I do not know what to do

19/20 19/20!

I got a 19/20 on my CH 4 stress management test Sorry not trying to brag but for something I do not quite know or understand I am proud of my self. Also Proud of a friend of mine Great scores you know who you are proud of you!  Don't worry people I will end up getting longer posts again soon just busy

Just plane fun!

So this weekend I get to go on a tour of ZAB and ABQ ATCTT I have done one once before but that was a few years ago I think it will be interesting to see what if any Next Gen has been added to center and the ATCTT I know they were working on the RNAV departures/arrivals into ABQ so maybe by now they have been implemented. Hoping that this will lead to a Job Shadow or perhaps summer internship at ZAB or ABQ ATCTT if I am lucky! Odds are no but maybe if I ask around on the tour you never know right?

So far So good

Well in both my classes SM and HFA are going well! I have been able to learn new things. For example Pilot Error includes bad placement of instruments or instruments that do not function well. I have more examples but I want to keep this post short and sweet more new stuff to come!